2010 就要结束啦
历年也就是说自懂事至今
每当到这时候都在压抑,开心,紧张
因为就要开学啦
今年特别了
不过不懂我是不习惯还是不喜欢
因为我似乎不是很开心将
无奈><
刚才跟我伯母讲话
我说亮亮星期一就开学咯
她说是哦!!我(她)都忘了
然后她说你就好咯
不用去学校了,开心咯!!
当时的我静了一下
也不懂是什么心情,就愣了一下
或许我不用犹豫酱多
所谓船到桥头自然直
想当什么就去当吧
不过我还是一直压抑
啊啊啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

考完试都不到十天!!!
大家似乎都没什么联络了!!
大家都忙着做工了
我也做工啦!!
只是我的工作应该比较轻松
因为没压力的
我还是想回学校
不是想念学校而是想念朋友
想念一直嘻嘻哈哈的我们
现在的生活多无聊
塞车去公司,做一堆不懂什么的东西方
听一堆听不懂的通话
几无聊叻!!!!!!
然后塞车回家!!!!
我讨厌驾车啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exam is over!!!
secondary life is over!!!
skul uniform is not the uniform to wear anymore!!
i am graduated!!!!!we are graduated!!!
should i happy bout this???
fren we are not going meet every weekdays anymore!!!
fren we are going to our way!!!
fren we are going to seperate!!
fren we are going to start our new life!!
fren we can not alway laugh together!!!
fren would u stil rmb after one year??
fren would our frenship last forever??
fren would u miss me???
fren would u have time to come out for gathering??
fren would us come out and laugh again???
fren would u take care urself as well??
fren would u stil rmb the day we together??
fren would u rmb the way we laugh!!!
fren would u rmb the way we dont care ppl sight and laugh??
fren would u rmb how we settle thing together??
fren would u rmb the day we become fren???
fren i miss u all much!!!
fren i sure would rmb u all!!!
fren pls help me to take care urself!!!
IF CAN I DUNWAN GRADUATED!!!
IF CAN I WANT MEET U ALL EVERYDAY!!
IF CAN I HOPE WE CAN CHIT CHAT EVERYDAY!!
BUT LIFE IS FOREVER LIK THIS!!!

fren i love u!!!!

两点了，我只吃了一块面包
不过一点肚子饿的感觉都没
最近的食欲真是差
不想吃东西（我没有想减肥的意识）
哎！！！我今天的心情一直闷闷不乐
我也不懂我在想什么
spm就还有那二十三天
我不懂我读了什么
拿着书看了看，翻了翻
我读了却进不到脑里
想象不到我的成绩会如何
！！！

我要读书！！
读书！！
读书！！

恋爱真的很复杂

它就如美美的外表

里头藏着丑丑的内心

不要轻易碰它如果你不了解它

因为它会把你伤得不省人事

开始是甜的又如何

为何要用一时的甜来换不懂多痛的伤

我不恋爱因为不想再受伤害

假期一天一天的飞着过
时间一分一秒的浪费着
好想硊下来求求时间停下
停下来让我好好的发呆
停下来让我在享受现在
停下来让我好好的反省
停下来让我享受着假期
停下来让我想想未来
停下来让我不要离开少年
好想时间是可以让我控制
时钟上可不可以有颗停顿健
那我就可以操控它



谁可以给我一把力量
把我推去读书
不要让我在堕落下去
完全提不起精神去读书

recently i am so trouble
what i wanted
what i going for
what i want it to be
i totally dunno
i am confuse
what is suitable for me
i dunno
totally dunno
but i need to choose
i ned to make a conclusion
aix...
i need sumone for HELP!!!!!!!!!!!




HOLIDAY IS GOING TO END SOON
TRIAL IS CUMING
I STILL NOT YET PREPARE
I AM STILL SICK!!!!!!!!!

爱 让人无助
爱 让人烦恼
爱 让人争吵
爱 让人落泪
爱 认人妒忌
爱 让人怀念
爱 让人回忆
爱 让人心痛
爱 让人虚伪
爱 让人等待
爱 让人牺牲
爱 让人无奈
爱 让人期望
爱 让人失望
爱 让人失落
爱 让人伪装
爱 让人痛苦
爱 让人折磨

曾经为爱牺牲
曾经为爱痛哭
曾经为爱幸福
曾经为爱快乐

如今一切如回忆
在脑中流浪
如今一切如回忆
在心中流血

那一切的回忆
曾经被取代
曾经被遗忘
曾经被回想

直到最后
它依然变成了回忆
轻轻回想
微笑和眼泪
同时在脸上

我为爱而哭
我为爱而笑
我为爱幸福
我为爱遗憾

爱到最后
选择放弃
也可完美

祝大家幸福

昨天听了一个讲座
真的很讨厌听
它让我想回很多很多东西
一些我不想想回的东西
让我流了不少泪
或许大家都以为我很坚强
或许大家都认为我不爱哭
不过其实我很容易哭
只是我不允许我自己哭
不过我不会控制眼泪
所以它就很轻易的流下
谁可以教我如何把累锁着？？



我想没有人会懂
我想没有人了解
或许你们觉得我很夸张
或许你们觉得我做作
不过我也想我所想的不是事实啊
如果可以选我宁愿我是夸张的
如果可以的话我宁愿我是做作的



不过我还是要谢谢那讲师
我们不应该在浪费时间了
我们应该要全力应付
至少努力过
成绩不好的话也不会对不起自己
还有我要谢谢PN.HASNAH
你是最好的老师



朋友们一起努力吧
GIVE ME FIVE
STRAIGHT A‘S YA

每当看了他的部落格
就觉得不舒服
不懂什么感觉来的
无法形容
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我又有新目标了
不过自己也觉得奇怪
别人那会不觉得奇怪呢
顺其自然
你感觉到了吗？？
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我是在不爽你
不要厚脸皮来跟我说话
不想听见你的声音
没意思要理你
不是我小气
是你惹我的
我就是这样
要怎样说我随便你
我不在乎！！

有些话
从不同的人说出
就会有不同的感觉
有些话
在不同的时候说出
就会得到不同的反应
我还是不爱做出解释
不爱给于反应
当被误会
就觉得
你们都那么想了
就算给了解释
也不会完全信啊
或惹来更多的误会
有时候
我很爱伪装
因为就不想让人了解
也觉得没必要让人了解



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刚刚看了看他的面子书
觉得我似乎消失在他的世界了
或许早就是吧
我没理由要你挽留
没理由要你聆听
没理由要你不忘
只是想在你心中
还有点位置






还爱你，带一点恨....





wei,生日快乐..

这个星期的教育展让我有很多烦恼叻
真的感觉到了中学毕业的近了
离spm真的很近很近了
似乎就来踏入社会
我真的真的很烦恼
因为我还没有目标
我不懂我该做些什么
该选读什么科系
接下来就是烦
下个星期就要考车了
我害怕我不过关叻
哎！！
船到桥头自然直
一切顺其自然吧


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今天有一件事
让我不开心了一下咯
自己懂就好咯
不想让人误会]
所以不写啦。。。

天啊！！！！
大家都说我黑了
我不要变黑啦
如果皮肤的颜色
可以依各人的喜欢来调整
那该多好呢><
太阳公公最坏的
你那里能这样欺负本小姐的
我要变白啦....


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最近我的头发颜色是不是很鲜艳了呢？？
大家都不断的问我
好无奈哦
其实从年头到现在就是这样的啊
不过就是从年头到现在都一直被问咯><
在刚过的放假我没染头发拉
只是之前染回的颜色退色了罢了啦
请大家不要在讲我了啦
我怎样说也是个好学生啦><
无奈无奈


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很辛苦的过了一个星期的考试
本来没什么想认真的读的
但是看到大家酱努力
我哪里可以不读哦
所以也拼了命去读
不过太迟了啦
读不完
还是有满足到啦
熬了很多个晚上
累死了
希望我不会拿到太不理想的分数拉
怎样讲都有付出吗
我想老天会给我机会的拉
希望如此啦
最后想讲
两年来第一次为历史付出得最多
希望也得到比平时多啦><
还有两个星期让我熬><

t_ _ _ _ _ n

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ponteng skul for undang text
lol
not i fail la
not take for 2nd times la
sat go 1st times
but not take it then back
cause a swt problem
JPJ OFFLINE
wat a suck excuse
then today go again lo
and and and
finally i watch 'ice kacang puppy love' d
fever again..
this year alway fever d...

烦！烦！烦！
迷失了方向
完全不懂我自己
我错了？？
不懂！！
我似乎越来越不懂我自己
现在的我不懂要做什么
只想安静的抽一根烟
过后喝一杯酒
然后喝到醉醉的
大喊大叫
想麻醉我自己
不要在去想那一切
我不需要解释
我没必要解释
不要一直叫我解释
我就是我！！
不爱解释的我
想怎样想我就怎样想
一切就是这样
我不需要别人的帮忙
我不需要别人的解释
我承认我是固执的
我承认我是小气的
我承认我是野蛮的
最后觉得是我错的
我说对不起

昨天也就是四月二十三号
喝了不少酒
每个人脸都红红的
我却越喝越青
我也要有红红的脸><
回到家有晕晕的感觉
醉醉的感觉
不能睡觉也睡不着
胃开始感觉痛痛的
越来越痛！！！！
突然之间很多来信
聊到了三点多才睡
在通信一直想起你
我很久很久没这样想念你了
因该是说没这样想过你
为什么我尽然会整整想了你一个晚上
不允许我自己在想你
只想告诉你
你很行！！！！
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四月二十四
终于去听了undang!!!
一个字 闷！！！
还有的就是
那个死penceramah
一直讲我和叫我
问我病啊
问我肚子饿啊
问我有在听吗
问我要回家吗
叫我开书
这个那个
全班人他都没叫过
就是一直叫我
气死我了！！！！
不要注意我拉！！！

好像好久没有更新了><''


上个星期六也就是运动会
读了五年的学校
不过今年才第一次去运动会
原本是没什么特别的心情
就是抱着为朋友加加油打打气的心情罢了
不过他就一直在我面前出现
我也没什么感觉
只是他竟然在我面前搂着一个女生的腰
事实应该是没什么感觉才对
不过我的心顿时间像被十几把刀插的痛
眼泪也在眼眶打转
没有勇气让它留出
过了一会那感觉也没了
晚上他在msn 和我说sorry
完全不懂为什么他要说
我也没多问原因
完全不想懂
有些东西不懂终比懂好
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老天爷终于让你们再会一起了
祝你们永远幸福快乐




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十四天
两个星期
结束了
没有感觉


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大家的烦恼
好像都解决了
愿大家开心+幸福



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希望我不要在病了
病！！！！！
离我远远啦！！
ANTISICK ANTISICK!!!!!!!!!!!!

25/3/10

first time


first time what leh???


first time lo...


25/3/10


what will happen on this day??


what??


what??


what???


cyling outside my house lo..


cheh!!!~~


not tat la..


is when cyling


suddenly


wow!!!!!!><""""""


arh!!!!!!arh!!!!!


a dog is chasing me!!!!!


then i keep cyling at fast as i can!!!


but at last i lose!!!!


it bite me!!!!


keep shouting!!!!


arh!!!!!!arh!!!!!!!!!!!help!!!!!help!!!!!!><"""""""""""


then my bicycle fall down at the dog body then it run


lucky my bicycle help me


lucky it bite my pants only


but it bite until break leh!!!


and its teeth sketch my leg..


pain!!!!!!><'''''''''''''


stupid dog


come my house stil wan bite me !!!!!!

i don't dare

i don't dare
i don't dare
i don't dare


not bcoz i don't love
not bcoz i hate
not bcoz u


is bcoz i love
is bcoz i lik
is bcoz me


i scare i will hurt u
i scare u will hurt me
i scare it break our relationship
i scare i dun sure
i scare explain
i scare the feeling


all is the not reason d reason
but tat are my reasons
sorry for all of tat
i noe it is not a good reason o explain for u
but i really dunno how to explain
it is hard to explain
hope u will understand
time can let u understand all the thing
good luck for u
i miss u
i love u

u~~

just want you shut your mouth up
and listen to me
i want to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say
to say









i miss u









i love u









pls take k









just FOR U

holiday again!!!

holiday holiday holiday~
yeah yeah yeah..
but it is a busy holiday..
with lot of homework
but i dun k..
also hanging out..
laughing laughing and laughing
playing playing and playing
chating chating and chating
walking walking and walking
keep enjoying with those thing..
so what..
important is happy ma..
blek><
spm coming??
yup!!
but we should enjoy our holiday first ma..^^
so be stress n serious after lah..



YEAH YEAH YEAH!!
FRIEND LET ENJOY TOGETHER
THEN ONLY
SERIOUS TOGETHER K!!!
HAPPY HOLIDAY!!

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me

but it is not really happy

busy remember ing

cuz the suck monthly test

wish me have a sweet seventeen

wat is the problem??

i get a feeling
is a abnormal feeling
hard to say out
feel very sorry to u
we hav a distance nowadays
the distance is not far
but i feel tat it is very far
we hav a secret in between
i think u hav many question to ask me bah??
but i think u not dare to ask bah??
if u ask i think i also wont answer
bcuz i not dare and i also dunno wat to ans
sorry again



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TO: guy



rmb our first meet??
rmb the first time i msg u??
rmb wat i write in the msg??
tat time is play..
but now it's become true
evrytime when i am waiting ur msg
then i will receive
yesterday u ask me
wat i wan on my bufdae
then i din say anything
then u say giv me a flying XXXX
feeling sweet in heart
but i say i dun wan
cuz i scare
cuz i shy
here to tel u
i want u as my present
can it come true??
i love u~~~

压抑的心情

刚刚去看了他和他的照片
从中觉得他和他都很开心
不过没有特别的感觉




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最近的心情很压抑
不清楚是为了什么
好想大声喊，大声哭
想用酒来麻醉





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多九天就是我生日了
不过多八天就考试了
生日在考试
一点开心都没有
我要多多礼物
我要他送我礼物
我要大大的公仔
我要我要的祝福
我想要好多好多东西
唯一不要的就是考试
祝我生日快乐

going back penang!!

tomorrow going back penang..
but i am sick now..
aix..
y alway sick d..
keep sick..
when my body can b strong??
wish me get well soon..
my friend all also take care ya..
god bless me!!!

cny

this few day
i also not tat happy..
y it turn back??
my heart was following u agian..
kinda sien la..
cny coming..
hope it b fine soon..
gastric faster b well..
hope u happy la..
miss u..



all my friend
happy chinese new yeah la..

it is gone

finding finding finding....
i keep finding....
where is it???
i cant get it..
my mood was down..
i totally cant find it..
then..
i try to ask her..
did you saw tat my _ _ _ _ _ _ _
wat is tat?? she ask lik dunno wat i am asking..
then i jus describe it..
and she say 'ooooo' tat one ar..
use finish lo..
mummy throw it lo..
shit!!!!!
i totally cant accept wat she tell me..
i jus get a very big fire burning on my head!!!!!!
mayb tat is jus a simple thing for u all...
mayb u all will say buy a new one lo..
but buy a new one is it ady no meaning for it..
i use for 7 til 8 years..
borrow u all no til one month then say it is finish..
and ady throw it..
did u all can respect my thing..
tat is mine...
but now is gone..
i borrow cuz u cry and say u no hav..
but now i cry cuz it gone..
i dun wan a new one..
although it is very cheap..
easily can buy it..
but it is meaningless..
totally hate myself..
fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am fucking angry!!!!
it is gone...
it is gone...
it is gone..
it is gone..
it is gone..
it is gone..



i dun k who u r..
i jus noe tat is mine..
u should respect my thing..
it is meaningful
but now it is meaning less....
shit it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid!!!

i noe u are quite good looking..
i noe u hav chase by many girl..
i noe that u noe i hav good feeling to u b4..
but i din tel u at all..
i din do sumthing to notice u tat i hav good feeling to u..
i noe u hav a good result..
but tat all not important for me..
i am so regret tat i hav good feeling to u..
cuz she tel u that she think i love you...
then u believe her
and think tat it is a fact..
u think everyone should love u??
u think u are really handsome??
u think u are very clever??
i can comfirm i hav good feeling to u b4..
but is it mean tat i love u???
now i am so hate to see u...
u no ned keep change ur road when u c me..
i am not a ghost or a vampire...
and i wan to tel you i hav not any good feeling to you for a long time..
dun jus keep imagine urself..
if u dare then jus stand infront of me and ask me..
now u make a different way to let me c u..
u r kinda weird!!!!!

GUESS IT

a mouth lik frog
eyes lik flies
buttocks lik a hippo
body lik an elephant
did she beautiful??
i feel she was very very 'beautiful'
want to noe who is she??
guess




guess




guess





guess




guess





get it??
she is my class t_ _ _ _ _ _
PN.D_ _ _ _ _



can not say who is she d la...
i think u all will get it d!!

[she]

nothing i can say to her

she has change a lot

i dunno whether she know wat she did has wrong

o she jus think people should respect wat she do

she think she never wrong???

aix..

dunno wat she is thinking now??

did her feel happy with her life now??

please wake up

and not in ur dream anymore

if u continue lik tis

u will lose ur friend
ur family

mayb u feel happy

or feel that we all are so annoying

and he is the one who understand u

who respect and support wat u do

but do u think tat y we all will so annoying

is tat he is the one who are so important to u

cause him u can give up all ur thing

pls wake up!!!wake up!!!wake up!!!

dun let all of us keep worry bout u!!!

dun let us disappointed anymore

u can share with us ur happiness n ur sadness

dun jus keep quite

and continue what u thinking

and continue ur wrong

hope u can wake up and chnage it after today

YEAH

I'M 17 lur!!!

I'M OLD D!!

time pass so fast

upsr was passing for few year ago!!
pmr also passing 2 year
now i am from 5 student d
few month soon
i can learn car lesen
then can drive
and few more month
i am sitting for the spm
then one year end again!!


watching AVATAR
really a super nice movie
lik it very much!!!
for those who haven watch
faster go and watch!!



2 more day
skul reopen
holiday is finish
no more enjoy
is time to study hard
is time to fight for spm
good luck for myself !!